Referral

Yesterday was the day. I accepted a referral for a beautiful little girl. Her birthday was June 4, 2011. She is absolutely beautiful and I am completely overjoyed. Her name is Demitu. I decided to keep her name as a middle name. Officially her name is Amara Rose Demitu Butler. Her birthday is also my grandmother's birday. She helped raise me, and passed a few years back. I am so completley thrilled. I wish I could post pictures but I can't yet, but I have to say that she is the most beautiful baby ever. This is the day I have been waiting for since December of 2009. Praise the Lord I am a mom!

Sad Day

Tuesday I spoke with the agency and this little baby I was hoping to receive a referral for passed away, It is so incredibly sad and difficulth. I have been praying for that poor little dear. There isn't much more to say at this time.

Moving on UP!

Yes, I moved up. I am number 2 overall and number 1 for an infant girl. I beleive(with fingers and toes crossed and multiple prayers) that my baby is waiting for me, and that I am only waiting on paperwork. There are moments of surreal anticipations, closing my eyes and imagining her, and moments of utter terror. Nothing feels real yet, but my hopes and dreams are alive and kicking. It could be any day, any moment. It could be tomorrow or next month.

For those who have not been through the adoption process, there is immense waiting. there is waiting for paper work, waiting for approvals, fingerprints, Social Workers (those damn Social Workers ha ha), and then waiting to move up the list, waiting on others' great news, waiting for a phone call. Then, once that call comes, I get to wait for a court date, wait for a letter, wait for an embassy appointment. There is a lot of waiting. A lot of anticipation and a lot of heart break. This is just the way it is. I know that God had a plan when he called me to adopt. When he cho( yes he chose ) Ethiopia ( I just happened to agree ). I know that some of my faults have been to have little patience and to be a control freak. Well over the last 18 months I have learned patience, and have learned that there is so little I have control over.

I've learned a lot of lessons. I've grown a lot and I'm grateful for every moment, every opportunity and every one in my life. I believe that, and that is all I know.

I Won't Let Go - Rascal Flatts T

This is my promise to you, my darling little girl, whom I know I am so close to seeing you for the first time. I feel you and I love you already.

Maybe June

I spoke with the agency on Friday. There are a few infants they are waiting for info on, and hopefully by June I should have a referral. I'm trying to stay calm about it and not get too excited until I actually have a referral. Hopefully soon!

Third Day - Follow Me There - Lyrics Another Great Song by Third Day

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Some great news,

I just read another family's blog. They received a referral for an infant girl on Friday. What this means for me? I am number 2, although of course I haven't confirmed this officially, but they were number 2, so this means I have moved up two spots. I guess I won't be sleeping much in the next few weeks hoping my call will come soon.

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!