Yes, I moved up. I am number 2 overall and number 1 for an infant girl. I beleive(with fingers and toes crossed and multiple prayers) that my baby is waiting for me, and that I am only waiting on paperwork. There are moments of surreal anticipations, closing my eyes and imagining her, and moments of utter terror. Nothing feels real yet, but my hopes and dreams are alive and kicking. It could be any day, any moment. It could be tomorrow or next month.
For those who have not been through the adoption process, there is immense waiting. there is waiting for paper work, waiting for approvals, fingerprints, Social Workers (those damn Social Workers ha ha), and then waiting to move up the list, waiting on others' great news, waiting for a phone call. Then, once that call comes, I get to wait for a court date, wait for a letter, wait for an embassy appointment. There is a lot of waiting. A lot of anticipation and a lot of heart break. This is just the way it is. I know that God had a plan when he called me to adopt. When he cho( yes he chose ) Ethiopia ( I just happened to agree ). I know that some of my faults have been to have little patience and to be a control freak. Well over the last 18 months I have learned patience, and have learned that there is so little I have control over.
I've learned a lot of lessons. I've grown a lot and I'm grateful for every moment, every opportunity and every one in my life. I believe that, and that is all I know.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Monday, May 23, 2011
I Won't Let Go - Rascal Flatts T
This is my promise to you, my darling little girl, whom I know I am so close to seeing you for the first time. I feel you and I love you already.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Maybe June
I spoke with the agency on Friday. There are a few infants they are waiting for info on, and hopefully by June I should have a referral. I'm trying to stay calm about it and not get too excited until I actually have a referral. Hopefully soon!
Sunday, March 20, 2011
2?
Some great news,
I just read another family's blog. They received a referral for an infant girl on Friday. What this means for me? I am number 2, although of course I haven't confirmed this officially, but they were number 2, so this means I have moved up two spots. I guess I won't be sleeping much in the next few weeks hoping my call will come soon.
YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just read another family's blog. They received a referral for an infant girl on Friday. What this means for me? I am number 2, although of course I haven't confirmed this officially, but they were number 2, so this means I have moved up two spots. I guess I won't be sleeping much in the next few weeks hoping my call will come soon.
YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, March 14, 2011
Blessings
In all the crazyness of the last few weeks, I forgot what was important. I am so crazily blessed by my family and friends. I know this adoption is my journey, but I am not on it alone.
My mother, with whom is so wonderful, retired two years early just so her grand daughter will never have to go to daycare. She heard that the children of Ethiopia are deficient in iron and eggs were the best way to help them, so three weeks later she had 6 chickens so the baby will have free range organic eggs. This of course does not counteract the five million crocheted, sewn and otherwise crafty projects she plans on making.
My family is so supportive. My aunt Cindy can not wait to have a little one on their farm. Her and my uncle Bill are special ed teachers (retired) willing to help with anything needed. She has also begun sewing pillowcase dresses for Africa.
My cousin Shelly is so crazy about this baby she is constantly buying things and looking into and learning about Ethiopia. Her 6 year old daughter wanted to tell the Ethiopian Prime Minister on the petition how much she cant wait for her cousin to come home. Shelly is coming to Ethiopia with me on one of my trips.
My best friend Jodi plans on coming with me as well on one of the trips.
My friends and family are already learning about AA hair, as I am petrified on doing hair. My work is so excted that not a day goes by where people aren't asking and praying for me.
There are so many other stories I could write about, my heart is so full.
I know this will work out. This little girl with be my daughter, but she will also be a Butler, and that is a pretty great thing. I really am Blessed. I know it will work out the way it is meant to, I feel a peace I haven't felt in a long time. God is on the side of these beautiful children, and I know he sent me on this journey for a reason. I give all my anxiety to him and pray for all to work out, as so many praying as well.
My mother, with whom is so wonderful, retired two years early just so her grand daughter will never have to go to daycare. She heard that the children of Ethiopia are deficient in iron and eggs were the best way to help them, so three weeks later she had 6 chickens so the baby will have free range organic eggs. This of course does not counteract the five million crocheted, sewn and otherwise crafty projects she plans on making.
My family is so supportive. My aunt Cindy can not wait to have a little one on their farm. Her and my uncle Bill are special ed teachers (retired) willing to help with anything needed. She has also begun sewing pillowcase dresses for Africa.
My cousin Shelly is so crazy about this baby she is constantly buying things and looking into and learning about Ethiopia. Her 6 year old daughter wanted to tell the Ethiopian Prime Minister on the petition how much she cant wait for her cousin to come home. Shelly is coming to Ethiopia with me on one of my trips.
My best friend Jodi plans on coming with me as well on one of the trips.
My friends and family are already learning about AA hair, as I am petrified on doing hair. My work is so excted that not a day goes by where people aren't asking and praying for me.
There are so many other stories I could write about, my heart is so full.
I know this will work out. This little girl with be my daughter, but she will also be a Butler, and that is a pretty great thing. I really am Blessed. I know it will work out the way it is meant to, I feel a peace I haven't felt in a long time. God is on the side of these beautiful children, and I know he sent me on this journey for a reason. I give all my anxiety to him and pray for all to work out, as so many praying as well.
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