No Changes

So it's been a while since I posted. No changes have been made in the referrals. I am still number four, yep number four. A little disappointed to say the least. I really hope that this will be the last Christmas I had without my daughter. I am still so anxious to meet this little girl who will be the most important person in my life until the day I die. I am anxious to hold her and get to know her, to see her face and experience her life. Some day soon I hope.

Four

Yep, I'm still number 4, no changes for 2 plus months. My agency says they hope things start moving again, but there's been a lull in referrals, so here I am patiently waiting and imagining a future not so far away with my little girl, waiting for Christmas morning with a little one laughing and squealng with delight. Yep, I'm waiting patiently ( or maybe not so patiently, LOL)

Four

Yep,

Still Waiting

I know that I have only 'officially' been waiting for 2 1/2 months, but this process is starting to get to me. I hate waiting, patience is not one of my virtues lol. I just can't wait. I look at the nursery, which I haven't actually worked on yet, and I get frustrated. I don't want to start on it until I have a referral, because I know it will make the waiting worse if I have to walk by an empty nursery every day. I just want to get through the next few months, I sure hope it goes by quickly.

Still

Talked to my agency today. I am still number 4. Hopefully as things move along now that court has re-opened more referrals will come in. Not much else to say at this time.

Stressed out/Due Date

Ok, so today the stress is taking it's toll. Everytime there is a possible change I freak out. I heard today the MOWA has merged with another. It means that the people in Ethiopia who review our paperwork has changed, and no one knows what that means. I may have to redo paperwork, but not sure. I've been trying to let things roll, but it's not working today.

I try to explain to people who ask about the experience is, it's like being pregnant without a due date. Trust me, I've already gained 15 pounds!, I guess somedays are harder, and the closer I get the more intense the stress is, but thankfully not as often as before. Anyway, I should find out this week if I moved up on the list.

For Now I'll stop ranting.

Still Waiting

Still Waiting. I will be calling on Friday to see if I have moved up on the list. Nervous excited at the same time. Everyone I see keeps asking me where I am on the list, I try not to worry about the number as much as everyone else. I am trying to keep myself busy, and when I start getting anxious about when I just try to remembery why. This journey actually started when I was 19 and thought about how I wanted a family, and always wanted to adopt. I always went back to it over the years, and then God Spoke to me and asked me why I hadn't done it yet. I didn't realize that I was missing something so intensely until I decided to adopt. Everyone asks my why I chose Ethiopia, but honestly it chose me, and I feel a peace I never knew. I guess that's a good thing, cause once the baby is home I think I will be no longer living peacefully- lol!

Anyway before the rambling gets any worse, I'll sign off until next week.