Possible movement?

I spoke with my agency yesterday and they have stated that they expect a great number of Referrals over the next two months, which is very exciting, however, not all the news was great. There is an announcement that MOWA has stated they would reduce the number of approval letters for court from 40 to 5 a day, which could extend the wait time from referral to court to up to a year. At this point I can only pray that this does not follow through, and my agency and other agencies are trying to get a meating with MOWA scheduled.

God sent me on this journey at the time that he did for a reason. The child meant for me is somewhere waiting for me, as I am waiting for her, I only hope I do not have to watch her grow up 8000 miles away.

Yesterday I became so disheartened by all of the blogs I have been reading and the negativity and rumors that seem to be so out of control, that I deleted myself from their lists, and now only belong to my agencies' blog. I hope that this will help alleviate the un-needed stress that these angry people have caused me, and can focus on what is important, becoming a mommy,

No Changes

So it's been a while since I posted. No changes have been made in the referrals. I am still number four, yep number four. A little disappointed to say the least. I really hope that this will be the last Christmas I had without my daughter. I am still so anxious to meet this little girl who will be the most important person in my life until the day I die. I am anxious to hold her and get to know her, to see her face and experience her life. Some day soon I hope.

Four

Yep, I'm still number 4, no changes for 2 plus months. My agency says they hope things start moving again, but there's been a lull in referrals, so here I am patiently waiting and imagining a future not so far away with my little girl, waiting for Christmas morning with a little one laughing and squealng with delight. Yep, I'm waiting patiently ( or maybe not so patiently, LOL)

Four

Yep,

Still Waiting

I know that I have only 'officially' been waiting for 2 1/2 months, but this process is starting to get to me. I hate waiting, patience is not one of my virtues lol. I just can't wait. I look at the nursery, which I haven't actually worked on yet, and I get frustrated. I don't want to start on it until I have a referral, because I know it will make the waiting worse if I have to walk by an empty nursery every day. I just want to get through the next few months, I sure hope it goes by quickly.

Still

Talked to my agency today. I am still number 4. Hopefully as things move along now that court has re-opened more referrals will come in. Not much else to say at this time.

Stressed out/Due Date

Ok, so today the stress is taking it's toll. Everytime there is a possible change I freak out. I heard today the MOWA has merged with another. It means that the people in Ethiopia who review our paperwork has changed, and no one knows what that means. I may have to redo paperwork, but not sure. I've been trying to let things roll, but it's not working today.

I try to explain to people who ask about the experience is, it's like being pregnant without a due date. Trust me, I've already gained 15 pounds!, I guess somedays are harder, and the closer I get the more intense the stress is, but thankfully not as often as before. Anyway, I should find out this week if I moved up on the list.

For Now I'll stop ranting.