Still Waiting

Still Waiting. I will be calling on Friday to see if I have moved up on the list. Nervous excited at the same time. Everyone I see keeps asking me where I am on the list, I try not to worry about the number as much as everyone else. I am trying to keep myself busy, and when I start getting anxious about when I just try to remembery why. This journey actually started when I was 19 and thought about how I wanted a family, and always wanted to adopt. I always went back to it over the years, and then God Spoke to me and asked me why I hadn't done it yet. I didn't realize that I was missing something so intensely until I decided to adopt. Everyone asks my why I chose Ethiopia, but honestly it chose me, and I feel a peace I never knew. I guess that's a good thing, cause once the baby is home I think I will be no longer living peacefully- lol!

Anyway before the rambling gets any worse, I'll sign off until next week.

Wait List

So I officially moved up to number 4 on the list! Wow, pretty small number in the scheme of things. Starting to become a little overwhelmed, scared anxious and nervous all at once. So I know are moving along, referrals are coming in, children are going to their forever homes, and within the next few months(god willing) I should be getting my referral call. Still don't have the nursery ready, and keep changing my mind on the name. Starting to think I should get a crackalacking start on the nursery (as all my friends and family have been telling me). I just can't make up my mind on anything. Part of me just wants to wait to see her before I start, but I know that is going to be such a crazy time. Let's just see how the next few months go.

Mailed in Dossier

On Wednesday i mailed in my dossier to the assistant stork, which will be delivering my Dossier to the Ethiopian Embassy, and mailing back to my agency. They should have my paperwork back by Wed or Thursday. One more huge step, now just waiting for my referral. Yeay!

USCIS Approval

Finally, my approval is in, 4 months later. One more hurdle I've climbed, and one step closer to mommyhood! I am so relieved. I should be heading to Marquette Wednesday to have my paperwork authenticated and sent out to assistant stork!

Wait time

I have not received my immigration appoval yet, long story, but good news! I am officially waiting. Referrals are coming quickly, 8 last week alone, and I am pretty close to the top of the list, like number 5, so I could receive a within 2 months, Yay! I'm a little overwhelmed, will write more later.

USCIS

I am starting to become impatient and crabby. I had my fingerprinting appointment on June 4, and I have not heard anything yet. I read about other people who had their appointment on the 4th, and they already got their report, and mailed their stuff in. I know it's all in God's time, but the waiting is becoming so difficult. I just can't wait to see her and know her, this is sooo hard, and I suspect it will only get worse.

bunnies

It has been just a crazy and emotionally draining week. Last week My dog got into a baby bunny nest and killed 2 baby bunnies. Actually she nearly killed one of them, and unfortunately I had to kill one because it was severely wounded and crying. I have never killed an animal before and I was traumatized. In the mean time I fenced off the area where the nest was, hoping the mom would come back. I had to go back to Milwaukee on last Friday to have my fingerprints redone, and I think it went ok.

On Saturday it was noticed by my cousin that the baby bunnies were out of the next, nearly frozen and being eaten alive by red ants. She and I made the decision to bring them in and try to rehabilitate them. Neither of us had ever done anything like this before, and had to make a decision quickly. They were probably within an hour of death, as they were only a few days old and so sick. We warmed them up, fed them glucose water and hoped for the best. I did not expect them to make it through the night, but they did, so I went and got kitten formula and pedialite from Walmart on Sunday morning. I learned this is what I should feed them through the internet. She and I took turns feeding and caring for the bunnies, which seemed to be doing well, but suddenly they became more lethargic over the last two days, and all 6 have since passed. There has been little sleep and much crying this past week. I am such an animal lover but this was draining. And to make matters worse, I am allergic to rabbits, and have been ill for 3 days.

I know that I have done the best I can, but am still feeling quite sad and tired. The only good thing about this past week, is that it took my mind off of waiting for the baby, which of course is now over, and that is all I can think of. Anyway, I hope this next week is much less tiring, and I hope I receive my report from immigration soon.